i really dont know who i m...
mayb my life is better off single than being in group... either way, i still feel lonely...
being alone at least doesn't bring any miserable to any of my frens... its juz me
to me, why share miserable n sadness to others?
keep it to myself n juz give only hapiness out...
atleast it is only 1 ppl who is going to be sad
to tell the truth, feeling linely to me is... juz already my way...
for 14+ years of my life i felt like that n i don't think it will change far...
sumtimes in group,i feel that helping the gang members is juz nt as easy as i thought
i help,others hate/disagree to my opinion..ARGHHH!!!
stressed up, worrying to much... to frens, family n even society... all r important to me... but i still feel down...when i'm alone... i dun smile, look gud or so,...
my frens always say i look sad, sick...
faking a smile n say i'm tired is my answer to all my ques n it juz goes on...
i'm always thinking n asking everyone including myself:
what r the 1st impression ppl put on me?
what do u guys think of me?
how's my attitude?
am i gud enough as a fren?
whats my true personality? my true self?
these questions make me take quizes or test from the internet n all...
most of it is true n i hope some are real... at the same time i hope some r wrong...
answers i'll sure to nid... but i hope to find it myself sum day
weakness r coming out from me 1 by 1...
the toughness i had n trained myself to have for the years is fading...
i'm ashame for what i've been...
easy cryer... who doesn't cry? i always cry by my own, when nobodies there...
this year, i've been crying more n even in front of my frenz...
making them worry, making them sad... i hate it...
WHERE IS MY OLD SELF??? I WANT IT BACK!!!
being down n emo is what i'm use to being called...
maybe i'm really better off by my own
to those who read this post:
so no worries...
nothing can pull me down that easily...
juz typing down my feeling during today's recess time...
~THURS, 10/9~
~1755~
~YANZZZ~
~typing down wat i written down during recess~
