自嘲

关心人却关心得自己反而不知所措很好笑吧。
永远只会让话题陷如尴尬好像是我独有的专长。
越感性，越担心，反而让自己更加的让话题冷掉。
胡思乱想的，害怕别人眼光的，因害怕而不敢争取的，通通都让我觉得很好笑。
明明在其他人眼里，我是坚强，最大胆的，什么都敢做的。
为什么自己心里是那么的胆小。越长大，越觉得自己是缩头乌龟。
因为自己曾经是勇过人，就被认为对什么都一样，想退缩却拉不下面子说我不敢。
装坚强变成了我必定做的事。
这其实不完全是坏的，因为这样，我尝试了很多事。
但是也因为这样，在别人面前有害怕的样子，就会觉得其他人会觉得我很弱。
因为这些事，我可以变得很难入睡。
睡觉对我来说明明是简单的事，但是偶尔的晚上当想起这些事时，。。。
觉得自己很可笑耶其实。明明对于其他人，这根本就不是很大的烦恼，但是自己却是永远都这样。
我其实觉得坚强的人应该大多是这样吧：
“外表越坚强，其实内心越弱。内心的脆弱只会被想了解他们的人看见，不然那层保护罩会像一个结界般，保护着真正的内心。”
这句话说实在，我不知道反不反映在我的身上。
我觉得这些‘强’人的心不容易打开，因为当他们把门关上时，钥匙早就不见了。
当坚强原来越大，关上的门也越来越多。
这扇门其实像影片一样，播放着想让人看见得自己的假象。
想要把这一扇扇的门开了，就只有慢慢的了解，慢慢的成为愿意开锁的锁匠。
这锁匠不能被影片所骗了，因为门越多，影片自然的就会越像真实的。
我觉得我自己就像是个笨锁匠一样，影片很容易把我骗得团团转，而我却知道被骗但是不知道该怎么做。
很好笑吧。
但是我真的希望，将来我真的能够成为一个成功的锁匠。能够不被影片骗了，同时也能够把门打开。
但愿这些真的能够实现。

college life

hmm... college life

never really thought of what college will be

according to western storybooks, it should be like

"looking out for hot guys/gurls" izzit?

college is juz like the previous years, study, make friends, study, tests, more studying, etc.

i keep geting from ppl:"you better treasure your college life because your studying years will be your best year ever."

So far i'm enjoying everything so let's hope i can continue it this way but with UPs n DOWNs here and there.

oh ya, met many old friends i my college too.

unexpected totally.

hope that everything will turn out real fine ^_^

~Yanzz~
~30/3/12~
~Friday~

Juz a Quick Return

blogging...
how long have i not done it? when back and check for no reason.
and walah. found out that i have not touch my blog for ONE WHOLE YEAR!
feels weird blogging again.

when i went to take a look at my blog, noticed a lot of ppl commented n felt weird.
went into a few link and i started to giggle.

i noticed most of the links are webpages for advertisements.

izzit common to get it recently? commenting to promote advertisements
anyways, this is juz a pass by blog so i think i'll juz end here.
(what a boring entry i say ==lll)

~Yanzz~

~Friday~

~30/3/12~

things keeps happening never endingly

just when i thought the talk will be the final problem in this friendship, problems are coming from the others in the group
everybody back stabbing each other, 1 class is splited into 2 groups bcoz of back stabbings(so they say)
i was planning to do a party(for the 1st time of my life for others) and now, its all bye bye...
talk in groups and take the advice without pointing to others can settle this so easily...
every1 in tears is making me nt hapi...
i hate this...
now i fnally understand y i hav chosen to be alone all primary skul life and up 2 form 3

i juz hope this drama will end

~Yanzz~
~WED~
~30/6~

hope things will be better after the talk

starting of 2day is like other ordinary days
skul no electicity(only the block i'm studying in)
hot
get scolded by teacher
forced to write a summary of 2 chaps in 15 mins CRAZY
and ...

after skul is where the main thing happen...
they planned to tell her but didn't dare to start the conversation so i start it...
everybody start telling her the probs
ask her wats her prob n how she feel bout wat we say, until halfway of coz she exploded to tears...
at last we noe wat is the prob
juz hope tat she can put down the unhappy AQAP
hope we didn't waste our's n her time... tats all...
bye blog

~Yanzz~
~TUES~
~4/5~

1st real cycling experience

went cycling wif lyn yesterday...
1st time cycling and i gt the hang of it in 2 hours thx to her... ^^
but can u blieve it?
i gt a cut even b4 the 1st 15 minutes n i didn't realise till her dad told me...
i obviously pulled her back but the next time i will sure to keep up and try to end the distance...
GAMBATEH!!!

~Yanzzz~
~Monday~
~3/5/10~

forced to T^T

haiz... everybody is waiting for an update...
its been long since i blogged
everytime i on the comp it will be video, comic n fb... so sori la for nt updating
first time exam just pass n all the results r given back
sum did well but say very teruk...
OMG! they nuts de...
2nd exam coming in may b4 the hols... muz rush rush rush again... sienzz ar
any suggestions to tell me write wat for an update?
if gt then leave a message ba...

BYE~

~Yanzz~
~18/4/10~
~Sunday~